Tearjerker

Lately, I've been realizing how big the kids are getting... and it makes me sad. It also makes me happy because it's exciting and easy and they make me proud... and all that good stuff, too. But it still is very bittersweet.

Just this week, I tried to kiss Chris... and this happened:
Me- Chris, give mommy a kiss before you get on the bus.
Chris- Mom, I told you... I don't kiss you in front of my friends.
Ramsey (Chris's friend who was waiting with us on our front porch)- It's o.k. Chris... I won't tell anybody. Ha!

And then tonight, Addison was sitting by me on the bleachers and we were watching Chris at swimming. She got soooo happy and couldn't get over herself. "Look Mommy, Look Mommy!!! My feet touch." She was able to sit on the bleachers and her feet touched the ground just like a big girl!

This month, I treated myself to not one, but two new c.d.'s. I never do that... but the kids and I have loved them sooo much. Addie is officially addicted to the song "Stuck like Glue" by Sugarland. You should hear my car with the three of us singing! Poor Chris- He has his mommy's rhythm. He's off... but he can carry a tune. And Addison- she has got it goin' on. Girlfriend can sing. She can dance, too... but in her everyday life, she can sometimes be a klutz. Brendan and I laugh at her because she's always running into doors or falling out of nowhere.

The other c.d. I got is the new Taylor Swift c.d.... Chris likes the song "Haunted" just because of it's name... and he thinks it sounds scary... But my favorite song is "Never grow up." It's soooo good... and the lyrics make me want to cry every time:

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14 there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up